after 3 full mth with him now i’m still not used to his routine. in fact i can’t even set a routine for myself properly…..coz i’d been kiving like a nomad. i can’t even set a routine for myself how to set for him? living like this had really been very torturing fr all of us,the kids especially…

Mavric is 8kg now at 4mth old… last mth and this mth he gain 2kg . yup it’s alot but thnk goodness he is on BF so is still OK … nurse also didn’t scold.. and besides he isn’t really over weight lah… still within the border.. just higher side.

He starts to flip TODAY – 3rd Jan 2012  and i witness it too. happy happy…

His bottom teeth (left side) can be seen abit and so does is MOLAR on the left side. It’s really a funny growth teeth… no sequence wan..

He can grab things too.. especially my fingers. He always grab and put it in his mouth to chew… teether he dun wan pulak!

He still wants to be carried all the time, refuse to lie down.. if u lift him up and stand.. he’s even more happy

He doesn’t like being alone, he need sound to calm him, he likes ppl talking to him, playing with him…else he’ll mengamuk

I wish he grow up faster, and can release me from all these tiring days but then… when i think back, there’s only 2 month away he will be on his solid, i feel abit “mg seh dak jor” means, BF will be less…

then he’ll start to crawl, then he’ll start to walk… then i will miss all the good times he lie down and start chasing him.. *gosh*

” Jdric, Jdric my good boy, Faster, Faster go to sleep,

Mama also want to sleep, So you better go to sleep,

Jdric, Jdric my good boy, won’t you faster go to sleep.”

Of course it didn’t work but i just sing to pass time…

Then come to Mvric… ( i actually forgotten the lyric but Jdric reminds me..haha)

It is based on ‘Hush Little baby’

” Hush little Mvric pls don’t cry, mama gonna sing you a lullaby,

Hush, little Mvric go to sleep, mama got alot of things to keep”

Scene 1 : He whine, the wanna suck, he yawns and he is quiet when put in the rocker… so what makes you think he doesn’t want to sleep? After carry M away, he whines again he pass to another person. Then it is up to me to carry it back and put back in the rocker UPSTAIRS rite? so why wanna create double job for me??

Scene 2 :  Normally J nap will be between 2 or 3pm for around 2hrs MINIMUM and sometimes uptill 4hr and i will wake him up if it is more than that. J just fall asleep at 4 something. 6pm everybody will start to ask why not yet wake. She will walk infront my room wanting to wake him but of course i “dare” her. He will be making noise to wake J too. Sil and so on.. everybody will ask the same question. What is it so hard for them to mind their own biz? I know lah when to let him wake when to let him sleep

Scene 3 : M sleep for more than 2hrs EVERYBODY will be showing me “the face” to wake M up. Later at nite how to sleep la, what time sleep la. Hello? did i ever ask any of you to help me when none of them could sleep? NO rite? So mind your own biz and leave me and my children plan ALONE! *argh*

It is so damn irritating when everybody thinks they are helping (particular 2 person) . When i really need them to help they are no where to be found and when the hse is quiet they wan me to wake the kids. So annoying

Evening, teruk loh.. 2 diff timing… all kena… summore kena twice. I personally have super sensitive nose and i’ll sneeze all the way..  but i don’t mind me. I juz don’t hope that my kids had to go tru this everyday. I know many ppl will be saying they had been taking the fume for 70yrs and still very much alive. Many will claim that the monks don’t get cancer.. and so on.. but that’s their problem rite? What if  i really get cancer, who is going to bear? Not anyone else but me, rite?  *sigh*

This is a strictly religious problem and.. i don’t think i should voice my “concern” so all i can do is avoid. I will bring my 2 kids upstairs every evening. 1 pretend to BF, 1 pretend to bathe.. the fumes not only is hazardous but it is terribly “sticky”. All the clothing will smell of it and even the room will smell of it if i forgot to close the door.

Now my J have problem mixing poop and blood. I found piles after he poop but it can’t be seen normally. No wonder he was complaining.. “scared” during poop. It was so hard getting him to sit on the potty! Blood only seen once and i had since constantly let him drink Yakult and yogurt.

Now little M have problem blood in poop too! It’s not piles but i don’t know what is the real reason. Only once i seen it, could be due to allergy (i hope not), or vein in my milk duct burst and M drank it. But i didn’t freak out like how i would act last time. i stay calm and MONITOR! next day no more.. so ok lah. Watever happen.. or watever it is.. may it gone forever.. hehe..

J : ang-gu, ang-gu

M : (babbling)

J : (smile)

M : (smile)

Both : (chuckle & laughing)

Oh.. wat a sweet conversation…

Nope i didn’t manage to capture the whole sweet memories but it was the sweetest conversation ever.

His bird bird is as big as my thumb and it is purple in colour. I quickly bring him to the clinic he normally go to. Doc said it could be due to insect bite coz there was no pus. The doc actually pull up his whole entire skin! OMG. She gv him some anti-itch and a cream to apply. But this time, he scream in pain when he go pee. I tot doc must had tear his fore skin or something. But i saw his brief is full of yellowish pus. *sigh* it wasn’t an insect bite, so meaning no more swimming to prevent happening again. No more Daniel Bego

Other times while didi in the playpen, i’ll see many toys inside he is trying to share with his didi. However i will stop him from doing that because afraid that the toys might cut or scratch didi. I think i’m the only mother who tells the kor kor don’t share with didi (yet)

Sometime he will take his toys and show it to didi, “car”, “truck” he said. I also saw him sharing his iphone with his didi while playing the xylophone. He on the music, take it up in front his didi face, when didi turn away he’ll walk the other side and show it to him. So loving of Jdric.

Yesterday i was accompanying Jdric for his potty time, then didi suddenly cry, he point toward didi “mama carry” – he ask me to go carry didi. Then while i was changing diaper didi also cry Jdric suddenly run away and came back with a pacifier

He is actually a very super kor kor. Everything we (he and i ) used to do together he doesn’t mind anymore. Even sleep he will ask me to hug him or hold his hand until he fall asleep but now.. i tell him mama need to feed baby nen nen or attend baby, he will roll over to 1 corner and sleep himself. It’s like he don’t mind sharing his mama with baby. He knows he need to share, he is willing to share.

However when grandpa carry didi he will tell point to didi’s bed and tell grandpa “put baby” hahah.. and he will use lotsa tricks. But he don’t really mind, he didn’t show any sign of jealousy. Maybe he is still young? In fast he love to hold his didi’s hand, kiss him and hug him. Sometime didi cry he wants to carry – this is the scary part.

There’s once i was brushing my teeth, didi cry i saw him comforting didi, giving the pillow and look at didi like asking him “is there anything i can do” that moment really melt my heart away. But there’s also once, i tot i saw him on top of his didi i quickly finish up and scold and wack him. Then i ask ” why you do tat” – i tot i saw he press his didi or something – wasn’t wearing spec. But he told me, “mama carry” – he wanted to carry his didi coz his didi cry. then i recall he memang always carry his didi or attempt to carry his didi whenever he cry *sigh* terrible mama.

one of the video i manage to capture look at his expression when didi cry.. haha

this was the sweet moment he just stare at his didi – can’t wait for him to grow up and play together

Did self made breast pad, try try lah. Not say waste or what. The t-shirt is going into the rubbish bin anyway.

Cut out a few of circular shape and stack 8pcs together (i stack 5 pcs only coz afraid the sewing machine cannot go tru), sew. Done.. actually i wanted to do an insang pari stitch at the side but too lazy. Don’t even know if the handmade breast pad could work. I’m also suppose to sew a triangle so that the pad is not 2D. Lazy Not say i’m going to use it for outing, so need to be perfect-lah. Normally for outing i’ll use the disposable can stick to the bra. Else the padding fell off while i’m shopping – dunno where to bury my face.

only manage to do 3 pcs from the tshirt

Actually i find the commercial breast pad is kinda over price (the 1 i bought 2 yrs ago – Av*nt) Nearly RM20 per pair. And it shrunk! I kept 1 pair and i compare it with the used, it shrunk nearly 1cm diameter. It is already quite small and now it shrunk. So now since i’m DIY-ing i try to made it larger so that it will have a full coverage.

made bigger pad for more coverage

Don’t play play.. my breast pad is branded

branded breast pad

T ried out the DIY pad ytd, size is OK but it manage go tru little. Should just follow instruction and stacked up 8pcs instead 5pcs. Smart Alec!

(1) Get a nice dress/skirt – when i purchase it definitely i’m in love with it, but it is now it is a junk coz i can’t wear is anymore. It is in “S” size. I definitively COULD NEVER go back to that size. But since i love the pattern so much i decided to keep it and now it is useful again. When i measure the waist is half of my waist now.

S size skirt that i love so much

(2) Cut open the zipper area but i didn’t cut i just open up all the stitch, and i have an extra zipper for future used ( i dunno wat i will do with it yet )

(3) The waist part i insert a plastic so tat my poncho have a bone for me to look tru at the baby instead of keep opening with my hand. BB also can breathe better inside. Bone? Don’t worry no need to buy… Guess what i used?

I always think why waste the cover but really don’t hv any purpose besides being a garbage

(4) Stitch the bone in place so don’t move here and there.

(5) Can either sew a piece of cloth to hang over the neck or get another cannot-wear-anymore-clothes. For me it’s simple i have a halter neck top that i can’t wear so i just reused it for my poncho. Since the clothe is abit rubbery so i just stitch both end tight. When i want to use it can just tarik to expand the neck part. Unless using a non-rubbery-cloth i’ll need to sew a button or ribbon to ease when hang arnd my neck. One side i sew into a rose because i want to tighten the stitch. Mana tau 1 day i tarik tarik the whole piece terjatuh) and i don’t want it to look ugly with so many untidy stitches so the rose is a cover-up. hahaha

rose as cover-up

So now, i can keep my skirt and i have a poncho that cost nothing except time.

Look at the round tulang

Just to clarify.. i didn’t think of this myself lah.. i’m not that creative.. i just do research on how to DIY a poncho and i found many ppl are doing it. I just get the idea and start converting my unused baju