My heart so ache February 14, 2012

We had been staying with my parent in Melaka after CNY until today. Only 2 weeks, but Jdric is missing his father soooo much. My heart aches everytime he call his dad.

When he heard cars or dog barks from our room the run to the window and he said “papa here, papa here” i had to tell him no it’s “ah gu” (my bro)…coming back… he is OK, he won’t whine or laukai.. he also won’t be disappointed.

When he saw his dad’s photo in my tab he’ll try to tab on the picture (wanting to call his dad) This morning he was angry with my tab coz it won’t initiate the call. *sigh*

Ytd he heard cars from the living room he said “papa come back” pointing at the door. i had to tell him no papa is working. So mom and i taught him that papa is working so can buy, nen-nen, sweet, chocolate, ice-cream,vege, rice… then that nite when he was talking on the phone with his dad he repeat all those to his dad. hahaha….

Fell from Bed February 12, 2012

When J was nearly 1yr old he fell from the bb cot. It was an accident that i think if can rewind the time i’ll still put him in the bb cot. Anyway i was downstairs hanging clothes, just got a gut feeling something bad will happen but i ignore. Baby cot was way up to J’s chest level. How could he get out rite? Anyway he manage to CLIMB out. *bom* that’s the only thing i heard downstairs no cry. I ran up and on the way i heard him cry.. maybe he is a bit super hyper cannot stop running today is due to the fall.

M nearly fall from the bed during our sleep too. I was sleeping blurr blurr then i feel him at my feet. Jump up he was an inch away from the edge. So now i’ll put pillow not only left and right but below him. 10th Feb, midnite i heard *bom* and scream. M fell on the floor even he is secure with pillow. He kick the pillow away! Luckily we were sleeping on the 6inch mattress so still not too bad.

Today *sob* *sob* i drop him.  Playing with him on the bed, then i saw the needles wasn’t kept. So i left him on the bed and keep the needle on the sewing machine. Then i turn around witness him fall to the ground with his bump first and then fall on his back. Head knock knock… *sigh* this is NOT an accident but totally my mistake. At 5.5mth fell so many times. I am really such a useless mummy… so many incident still never learn!

1st Solid : Mashed potatoes with BM February 7, 2012

J was 5mths and 2 days when he started with solid on Heinz apple puree.

Now M , 5mth, 1wk and 5 days…. started his 1st solid with a homemade potato mashed with BM. I think he likes it alot. He actually shows sign of readiness when he was 4mth old but i just worried his digestive system wasn’t ready.

Today i’d steam the potatoes and mix it with BM until really smooth and watery. M ate quarter of it. It’s really a major achievement because he haven’t had anything rough down his throat before. He can swallow real well. His molar and front bb tooth haven’t grew out yet! Still can be seen, a very tiny whitish dot.

BB M first trip February 4, 2012

Back dated to 26 Jan (4th day of CNY) :

BB M very first trip (besides back and forth fr KL and Melaka) We went to Bukit Gambang Water Resort. Ha-B was the one entertaining J all the time. Brought him to the water park, played with his cousins. M and I were in the room coz tat place wasn’t suitable for him. We did went down but M took this opportunity to sleep tru out the water park session. My back and shoulder nearly fall into pieces carrying him while he sleep. :S i didn’t went into the water. Just look from far how happy both my J was. We only stayed a nite there and i was like thank God as least to the beach i can let M sit on the ‘bumbo chair’ while i play with the sand/sea.

Next day off to Cherating, which is arnd 30min fr Bkt Gambang but we took 2hrs coz we detour into Kuantan town. Bought junkies thinking can i’ll hv time to relax on the beach and watch them play. Upon reaching, everybody changed into their swimsuit including me and M. When down it was slightly drizzling, but it is ok. J was afraid of the sand!! Alamak.. he didn’t want to be put down. So i trick him to play the wave a little, and run whole he tries to catch me coz me wants me to carry him. Ok-lah after awhile he was OK with the sand which is more dense near the water.

Then i pick up J to play with the sand, he isn’t happy… then i get his leg to touch the sea water, he was too afraid pulak. The wave was abit loud when it crashes to the beach. It is monsoon season what u expect rite? So i didn’t want to gv him a bad experience decided to go back to the room. On the way back, i was to tempted to jump into the pool so i tot, since we’re both changed why not. We had a little short dip, playing with the pool.. but M wasn’t really happy. he looks bored. So i guess he must be sleepy! (At home had to force him to sleep, now we’re on our trip he wants to sleep, *argh*) Back to the room bath and changed him. Put him to sleep…short while, M is awake again. So i went down and saw my J doing a back flip into the pool! OMG really brave of him and everybody was thinking he was brave jumping into the pool wait till they see his back flip. He even have names for it. “dolphin”

He was happy i can see but too happy until refuse to come out from the pool. He got no choice but to pull him out and carried him way back to the hotel room while he screams and shout. *sigh* suppose to be happy but end up this way. We tried talking to him, telling him there’s tomorrow and still can play again. Not working of course…

2nd day at Cherating, worst i didn’t even dip into any pool or sand! Just carrying M and sit by the pool. *argh* this is so not me… i never let go any chance to dip or to the beach! How my life had change now..

I’d made my decision, until M can walk i’m not gg anywhere to stay over nite again. Waste my time travelling… didn’t enjoy at all.

 

New Year, New Things, New Life, New Home February 3, 2012

We had sold off our beloved home in Melaka a couple of months ago. Now we’re just waiting for the full payment and we can hand over the key. My heart sore …. i loved that house.. we had build it together. We made our two kids in that house, we have our quarterly BBQ and steamboat in that house. We painted the house with many of our good friends, we move into that house with the help of our besties..  we fix the room doors and painted it ugly-ly not knowing that we need to sand off the based coat, and now the door is rough and ugly but it’s nice work done by both of us. now i need to hand the key to someone else. *sob* *sob* if only i can “MOVE THE HOUSE” . Melaka home is really a very nice place, (apart from all the nonsense from that *W#$# neighbor)

Selangor hse is in progress, i don’t know why the developer takes so long to transfer the name. *darn* But thank God the seller is kind enough to give us the key and allow us to do anything to the hse. But of course, i will not do any major reno. What if tak jadi then i’ll be doing a free reno for him loh. Just minor and move in.

For this new house ( we can’t call a home yet) if we’re OK, can actually move in, the rod iron grill is there, the kitchen cabinet is ready, the gas stove is cookable, the toilet is with hot shower, curtains are all up. But i prefer to do up the some minor work before moving in.

(1) termites repellent

(2) repaint the whole interior – will buy the paint and ask some indon to help

(3) change the parquet to wood laminated for whole upstairs – to make sure no termites and safer for the kiddos

(4) minor touch up on the cracks – should be able to DIY

(5) This time i’d got to use the back room as a kids room cause it is bathe room attached, so i’m gg to wallpaper it with nice blue and green wallpaper – lebih lebih

There’s also a few things i really tempted to get

(1) My oven! eventually wanted to get the oven with the stove but the previous owner left us with theirs so.. why not? Now where to put my oven leh~~

(2) My pots and pans (can mausk oven) & a set of Zwilling knife – saja saja with the knife, watch too much AFC & FNA

Well let hope and pray hard that everything went smoothly and we can move in, in 1 mths time.

Happy Chinese New Year – Dragon Year ! February 1, 2012

This Chinese New Year had been different from previous years,

(1) I did not went back Melaka to celebrate – every year i’ll be in Melaka  coz we/Ha-B works there.

(2) In laws went vacation, so we took this opportunity to cabut too else Ha-B no time to cabut dy

(3) There’s 2 kids, means 1 extra angpao so we must do more visiting, ha! – turns out we did not attend any friends gathering, i didn’t see any of my schoolmates/collegemates/relatives from SG

(4) We don’t visit friends, we just attends gathering but this year i visit 1 particular friend who is ever so close to me and yet she’s a stranger i never met .. haha.. sound complicated but she is always there for me when i need her. Even sounds stranger.. haha.. – she is JC

More of Meh-vrik January 3, 2012

well i don’t know what to say..i’d been unfair to M for not writing his progres like i used to do for J. .actually i did wrote a long list  during my confinement but when i re read it’s all about J and i. since i wasn’t the one taking care of M during the 1st mth so  there nothing to write about him.

after 3 full mth with him now i’m still not used to his routine. in fact i can’t even set a routine for myself properly…..coz i’d been kiving like a nomad. i can’t even set a routine for myself how to set for him? living like this had really been very torturing fr all of us,the kids especially…

Mavric is 8kg now at 4mth old… last mth and this mth he gain 2kg . yup it’s alot but thnk goodness he is on BF so is still OK … nurse also didn’t scold.. and besides he isn’t really over weight lah… still within the border.. just higher side.

He starts to flip TODAY – 3rd Jan 2012  and i witness it too. happy happy…

His bottom teeth (left side) can be seen abit and so does is MOLAR on the left side. It’s really a funny growth teeth… no sequence wan..

He can grab things too.. especially my fingers. He always grab and put it in his mouth to chew… teether he dun wan pulak!

He still wants to be carried all the time, refuse to lie down.. if u lift him up and stand.. he’s even more happy

He doesn’t like being alone, he need sound to calm him, he likes ppl talking to him, playing with him…else he’ll mengamuk

I wish he grow up faster, and can release me from all these tiring days but then… when i think back, there’s only 2 month away he will be on his solid, i feel abit “mg seh dak jor” means, BF will be less…

then he’ll start to crawl, then he’ll start to walk… then i will miss all the good times he lie down and start chasing him.. *gosh*

 

Baby Song December 22, 2011

When J was a newborn, he had difficult time to sleep like normal babies. He’d sleep at 3am most of the time. So i created a song for him based on ‘Twinkle Twinkle Little Star’

” Jdric, Jdric my good boy, Faster, Faster go to sleep,

Mama also want to sleep, So you better go to sleep,

Jdric, Jdric my good boy, won’t you faster go to sleep.”

Of course it didn’t work but i just sing to pass time…

 

Then come to Mvric… ( i actually forgotten the lyric but Jdric reminds me..haha)

It is based on ‘Hush Little baby’

” Hush little Mvric pls don’t cry, mama gonna sing you a lullaby,

Hush, little Mvric go to sleep, mama got alot of things to keep”

 

I have lotsa KPC at home December 21, 2011

They would ask me why baby still sleeping? why not yet wake up? why sleep again… HELLO? baby needs to sleep for brain developement in case you don’t know.. and besides i’m the mother and i know when he needs to sleep.

Scene 1 : He whine, the wanna suck, he yawns and he is quiet when put in the rocker… so what makes you think he doesn’t want to sleep? After carry M away, he whines again he pass to another person. Then it is up to me to carry it back and put back in the rocker UPSTAIRS rite? so why wanna create double job for me??

Scene 2 :  Normally J nap will be between 2 or 3pm for around 2hrs MINIMUM and sometimes uptill 4hr and i will wake him up if it is more than that. J just fall asleep at 4 something. 6pm everybody will start to ask why not yet wake. She will walk infront my room wanting to wake him but of course i “dare” her. He will be making noise to wake J too. Sil and so on.. everybody will ask the same question. What is it so hard for them to mind their own biz? I know lah when to let him wake when to let him sleep

Scene 3 : M sleep for more than 2hrs EVERYBODY will be showing me “the face” to wake M up. Later at nite how to sleep la, what time sleep la. Hello? did i ever ask any of you to help me when none of them could sleep? NO rite? So mind your own biz and leave me and my children plan ALONE! *argh*

It is so damn irritating when everybody thinks they are helping (particular 2 person) . When i really need them to help they are no where to be found and when the hse is quiet they wan me to wake the kids. So annoying

So hard to avoid December 20, 2011

Everyday, early in the morning there’s particular 2 person will lid the joss stick, burn for around. i dunno.. 30mins? Morning i tak kena lah… i belum bangun ma..

Evening, teruk loh.. 2 diff timing… all kena… summore kena twice. I personally have super sensitive nose and i’ll sneeze all the way..  but i don’t mind me. I juz don’t hope that my kids had to go tru this everyday. I know many ppl will be saying they had been taking the fume for 70yrs and still very much alive. Many will claim that the monks don’t get cancer.. and so on.. but that’s their problem rite? What if  i really get cancer, who is going to bear? Not anyone else but me, rite?  *sigh*

This is a strictly religious problem and.. i don’t think i should voice my “concern” so all i can do is avoid. I will bring my 2 kids upstairs every evening. 1 pretend to BF, 1 pretend to bathe.. the fumes not only is hazardous but it is terribly “sticky”. All the clothing will smell of it and even the room will smell of it if i forgot to close the door.